Feeling Down :(

okay so hey guys ! (or gals)

So today's post isn't going to be my normal happy go lucky post .....

Today its going to be about feeling down and what i do to deal with it and also the many issue's i deal with while feeling "down".

Okay so lately I've been feeling really down and i have no idea why ? Maybe its because i feel I'm stuck in a career rut! Or maybe its because I'm on a weight loss journey and nothing seems to be working? Or any of the other million and fifty issues dancing around in my head !?!

Most days there isn't anything that even puts me in a foul mood it just happens mostly it happens when the kids are in bed and I'm by myself watching TV or reading.

That's when the negative thoughts take hold i.e. 

What am i doing with my life?

Am i pretty ?

Am i doing my best as a mother/Girlfriend?

Why have i lost touch with all my friends?  

Apart from my kids what do i have to show ?

Then i normally have a cry :( & the worst part of all of this is i never know why I'm crying , is it the fact the i know the answers and refuse to admit it to myself ? or is it the fact i don't know the answers and that's why I'm getting work up ? 

I really don't know & half of the time i cant answer myself , it isn't a case of my head is saying one thing and my heart another ! Its more the case of i cant hear the right answer over the hundred arguing in my head ( I promise I'm not crazy) ha ha or maybe just a tad!! 

So what do i do to get myself out of these mood swings/bad days ??

Re evaluate and I answer the questions and maybe every time i do, i will get a different answer but one day I'm hoping a light bulb will click on/off and tell me what i am supposed to be thinking/saying/doing.

It never works like that but certain things i battle with i always hope it will be that easy :/ 

I know the easy option is never the way forward, life's at test and a bloody hard one at that , and every one loves a challenge but sometimes it just feels mine journey seems a bit harder than others.

Now before i receive any sort of feedback on this i would just like to say i know there are people in this world far worse than myself but this is just sometimes how i feel and wanted to let people out there know if they feel the same its ok and also if things never get better see someone it helps to have someone to talk to who doesn't know you , and this is like that for me i never know who is reading my content if any one? but here it is anyway 

UPDATE : I'm know at college , going out with friends & family more and starting to feel more content with myself. 

Thanks for reading any questions just ask :)